Busy head.

What goes on inside your mind

in that constant busy head

trying to ignore the voices

saying you'd be better off dead

I hope you beat your demons

as that's really all they are

by knowing how much we love you

and that you've already come so far.

xxx

Lyrics I love

I wish I was your favourite girl. I wish you thought I was the reason you were in the world.

What's going on in that beautiful mind? I'm on your magical carpet ride

You'll be my sunny day, I'll be your shade tree

I don't want the world to see me, 'cause I don't think that they'd understand

I ain't looking for praise or pity, I ain't come around searching for a crutch. I just want someone to talk to, and a little of that human touch

your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me

The quiet scares me coz it screams the truth

I know you get me so I let my walls come down. Before you met me I was alright but things were kind of heavy you brought me to life now every February you'll be my valentine

Wake me up when it's all over, when I'm wiser and I'm older. All this time I was finding myself but I didnt know I was lost

Are you so strong or is the weakness in me?

Is it to late to remind you of how we were? No our last days of silent screaming blur

It's so clear now that you are all that I have. I have no fear coz you are all that I have.

For you

A man of courage, a man of strength
A man with a brilliant mind
A heart of gold and a passionate soul
makes you one of a kind

I know you are the one for me
you're all that I desire
I feel our love throughout my being
it really lifts me higher

I hope you feel the same about me
and that our love grows all the time
I know that together we'll achieve our dreams
please forever be mine

xxx

New Year Relationship reflection

The nearing of a new year
is a good time to reflect
so I wanted to put down in words
why you are the best

Youre oh so very romantic
giving poems, gifts and flowers
and when you brought me the moon and stars
I could have danced with you for hours

We have amazing chemistry
I fancy you so much
glad we have an equal sex drive
you give me such a rush

Passion burns so very bright
in all you say and do
I believe in you 100%
I hope you know thats true

We have a lot of fun
When we're relaxed and full of joy
spending quality time with you
is the thing I best enjoy

I love you truly with all my heart
but I knew I did right from the start
here is to our next year together
my one true love, my always and forever.

1 year in

Written Oct 2013

You've become a part of me
a part that's deep and true
whilst there have been others before
this kind of love is new

Our kind of loves accepting
it's caring and it's kind
it's passionate and fulfilling
it's a love that's hard to find

I enjoy being around you
miss you when youre not here
as you really are my fav
I always want you near

xxx

Falling for you

23rd Feb 2013

Somethings changing
And that somethings good
I want you around
And maybe I should

Youre complex and creative
A real fine mystery
But youre caring and youre kind
And at one with my mind

So lets learn to love
Learn to figure it out
Yes, lets discover what lifes really about

Because I love you
And I think you love me
So come on darling, lets see what we can be

xx

My Italian Romance

I met my Italian through a chance encounter. A last minute city break was in order and Florence happened to have the cheapest flights. It was out of season and bitterly cold so to seek solace we headed to an Irish bar. My Italian has since told me he tried speaking to me as soon as I walked in, but I do not recall this. The first time I saw him was when he asked to join our table.

We spent the rest of the evening laughing together and having a lot of fun. He called the next day to ask me for dinner. Whilst I refused dinner (I couldn't leave my friend alone) I agreed to join him and his friends for drinks. Another fun filled night followed and I left Florence happy to have met him.

Little did I know at that point that this was just the beginning. My Italian kept in touch and within 2 weeks he had booked his flight to visit me in London. It was a very romantic gesture and although I was apprehensive about spending the weekend together I needn't have worried.

Although he was 10 years older than me, my Italian and I had a lot in common and spent hours talking about our lives and over the months that followed developed a close bond. We'd save our money for flights to see each other. I loved the Italian lifestyle - we took road trips to Italian villages, drank red wine and enjoyed each other.

The last time I saw him was in London. Saying bye this time felt different. I was worried I was beginning to fall for him. Longer term we knew we were incompatible. He was happy to be the eternal bachelor whilst I wanted marriage and children. We ended it amicably before we got in too deep.

Although he wasn't my happily ever after, he was most certainly an unforgettable chapter and I'm still happy to have his friendship in my life.